No0rAshImAh

2010-03-11T01:22:00.002+08:00

Your consistency makes me fall for you deeper each day.
I wished you'd hold back but also at the same time I don't want you to.
ShImA

2010-03-03T03:24:00.002+08:00

Since I can’t sleep right now.. I might as well update this blog of mine.

Yesterday I went for a jog at Mac Ritchie with Wang He, Ming Hui and Eva. I think I’ve lost my stamina after weeks of slacking. Ming Hui’s an awesome friend of mine who pushed, motivated and encouraged me throughout the jog.

The hiking memories played in my mind while I jogged. An example would be, Nipun, the awesome best friend of mine who hiked with his umbrella when it rained on that day. HAHA! It’s still fresh in my mind. How I missed those times.

Anyways, thank god it didn’t rain. The sky was dark when we reached. Even if it rained, at most we all got drenched. No big deal.. and for your information, I didn't put on ANY make-up. Yup! XD As most of you people already know... I can never leave my house without make up. Funny thing is that it actually felt great without all those on my face when I jogged. The fact that I don’t have to worry about my make up being washed away by perspiration. And that I could just use the towel to wipe my face. It is just awesome.

When I got home... I ate 2 big packets of chips and a pack of maggi. & there goes my day of hardwork. Ouh wells..

And should I go cycling with them at Pulau Ubin? It would be fun but 8.30 at Pasir Ris sia!!! Super early larh... Wahlaowey.. Will decide later today. =)
ShImA

2010-03-02T01:27:00.003+08:00

It sank deeper into this soul of mine
For each time you utter it
If you would hold me close in your arms
Say it to my ears in person
You might occupy the vacant space
In this heart of mine.
ShImA

2010-03-01T02:11:00.002+08:00

Sweet nothings when expressed too frequently
Doesn’t mean a thing anymore.
ShImA

Everything comes in moderation

2010-02-17T15:01:00.007+08:00

It'll soon come to an end and we will all lead our lives separately.

No more playing monopoly cards at the various canteens, no more the studying together, no more eating together, no more boon's 'supervisor' paper clips on my key board, no more shouting Nipun's name in school, no more poking Divek, no more Joanne's contagious laughter, no more Ming Hui's nonsense, no more hearing them teasing me on the way I say things, no more them poking me, no more the wahlaowey and the list goes on...

I will miss all those memories we've gone through, shared and experienced together for it'll always stay in my heart for as long as I live.
ShImA

2010-02-17T15:01:00.003+08:00

Yesterday It was
/...........................................this much...........................................\
the span of determination I've got on completing what I've yet to complete.

and then Today,
it was only /this much\

Can you see the difference?? I'm talking about my determination level here. It has always been like that. like seriously...
what is becoming of me?
ShImA

distraction is what I seek while completing it.

2010-02-10T13:48:00.004+08:00

When your intention of indulging a chocolate bar is to make you feel better on a sad day, it makes you sadder when you eat a melting one. I nearly cried.
ShImA

2010-02-10T13:48:00.002+08:00

To lay your hand on one's face is like tampering with their dignity.
And when you did it once, it'll become a habit.
ShImA

& That's why I only say.

2010-02-05T16:46:00.002+08:00

I gazed at the red sun as it sets before me.
Extraordinary as it seems.
Only to find out later,
That it was the day my cat died,
After the sun vanished from the earth's surface.
ShImA

2010-02-01T16:46:00.003+08:00

Archives are BACK!!
They said don't dwell on the past.
Come to think of it...
Sometimes.. you just need to look back...
Refresh those past memories...
& see how much have changed ever since.
ShImA

I know I have.
What about you?

2010-01-28T09:53:00.002+08:00

Bring Me To A Place Where I Can Witness Red Sunset Melting Into The Sea Allowing The Cooling Sea Breeze To Caress Me
ShImA

2010-01-23T22:12:00.001+08:00

I’ve endured so much without you realising how heartwrenching it was for me. I stayed silent as if those uttered words of yours don’t seem to have the slightest effect on me.That is how much you’ve hurt me mentally over the years.
Enough said. ='(
ShImA

The ONLY person who knew inside out
The ONLY one whom I could turn to
My brother.
And I thank god I have him.

2010-01-21T01:51:00.002+08:00

A mixture it has become.
Due to the various accumulated thoughts that are revolving in your mind, It caused the different emotions you felt to neutralize.
You just stop and stare into thin air.
And that is when emptiness envelopes your soul.

I feel that I’ve lost a part of me.
Don’t ask me questions pertaining to it
I won’t be able to answer you myself.
ShImA

Maybe it is time to step back.

2010-01-19T09:52:00.003+08:00

Sometimes it's too overwhelming that you just stop and stare.
ShImA

2010-01-17T01:34:00.000+08:00

It drifts two souls even further.
Confession is like hoping to stay alive after jumping off a cliff. When you’ve anticipated the worse why bother risking it. Then again it’s about saying it now or else you’ll miss the chance. It all depends on individual is it not? Good for you if it works, too bad when it doesn’t.
Sometimes...What you see isn’t always what it seems to be.
ShImA

I don’t like it.
& I think it’s a big mistake.

2010-01-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

Insults are like slashing one’s dignity that leaves scars for life.
Aim the heart and thrust the knife in.
Then pull it out.
ShImA

2010-01-13T00:16:00.002+08:00

It is like an addiction.
The thrill I seek.
Flutters of butterfly I felt in me.
And I craved for more.
But a great disappointment spread through my body
A tinge of regret filled my soul
Heavy sigh escaped my lips
Tears welled up in my eyes
As I waited.........for nothing.
With a heavy heart...
It’s time to accept defeat
For I know it is temporary.
ShImA

♥You just can’t cross that boundary.

2010-01-11T02:34:00.003+08:00

Friendship
It's about fun and joy one brings to another that adds colour to one's life.
ShImA

Invaluable Treasure.

2010-01-03T02:38:00.003+08:00

New Year's ResolutionTo be a better person and
To slim down. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
When I think about it... I’m not sure how I should feel. No word would be able to describe it. Was it not obvious to realise it or it was too obvious that one would rather choose another path to go with the flow. This is when possibilities are bound to hurt. One way or another.

Breeze and calmness are irresistible.
A state where one would set their mind free
They’d either filter out everything
Or filter in anything
But when it’s gone too far in depth
You’ll fall right in and then drown.
ShImA

Because some principles are fading away.

2009-12-26T01:22:00.002+08:00

You can never be like me.
Sometimes I don’t get it. Why would a person go through so much just to see the other ‘suffer’? Is satisfaction what they’re hungry of? Or is it the sense of accomplishment they’d like to achieve? Or is jealousy the culprit behind all those nonsensical things people do to others? I think it’s stupid and really a waste of time. Why can’t we just accept the fact that each and every human being is special and that there’s no reason for one to envy the other?

Here’s something to ponder upon.
When one whole group is against a person, don’t you think that there’s something wrong with that person?

PS: We’ve been covering that dirty work of yours and yet you kept digging. Just because a few got your back doesn’t mean they will once everything is revealed. And I think you're pathetic.
ShImA

Bipolar.

2009-12-23T16:43:00.003+08:00

GEMINI
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good at confusing people... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Geminis will not take any crap from anyone. Geminis like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Geminis can be very sarcastic and childish at times and are very nosey. Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.
ShImA

2009-12-23T16:43:00.002+08:00

‘The only ever reason someone hates you would be because they just wanna be like you.'
Self Explanatory larh huh?
ShImA

2009-12-01T17:53:00.002+08:00

Yesterday Lawrence and Tony were in school. They were from BD. I’m so happy to see them. It felt great to be recognized. I saw them when I stepped into R211 but I couldn’t seem to recognize them. So I sort of ignored them. Then Lawrence knocked on the glass panel and both of them waved at me. =) So cool...
ShImA

2009-12-01T17:53:00.001+08:00

So TiringSo cute the Panda.. I so want to hug it. So fattt.. haha.
ShImA

2009-11-29T00:23:00.001+08:00

Now that IA is over... & soon it’s time to switch over to FYP.
It has been a fruitful journey in BD. The people there are just amazing; from the R&D colleagues to the PDN people to those who shared the transport with me to the canteen people n those who spoke to me. You know... if I were to go back there to work... it’ll be because of the people there. I’ll miss them all and also the activities they organised. It was really an enjoyable experience. The memories will stay vivid in my mind. No doubt.
& I’ve changed for the better.

I’m so looking forward to FYP. Even though people have claimed that it’ll be a bore. If we have the proper mindset, I’m sure I’ll do fine. =)
ShImA

& I've brushed off the dust.

2009-11-15T22:27:00.006+08:00

If you felt as if there's something missing in my blog... it's because... I’ve removed the archive section... if you missed or if you want to read the previous entries....too bad...you just have to go and figure it out yourselves alright... =)

People who burped so loudly in public are a MAJOR turn off. And constantly doing it is just disgusting.
ShImA

2009-11-02T19:07:00.004+08:00

With them around.... It’s just CRAZY.
Halloween @ Night Safari was AWESOME!!

I love the JOKER! He’s so cool & cute...He's the BEST. &

& That Clown is SICK I tell you...but he’s funny... the way he ‘haunt’ Saliza.

The Horror Tram was indeed a scary ride. I swear... when I got home....I felt as if someone’s watching me... eerie it was.... because that image of the ‘Pontianak’ got stuck in my mind. Goodness.

That Aladdin was the ONLY one who made me scream.
& i smacked his hand for scaring me.
OOpz..haha!

On Sunday I did the craziest thing. I went for a continuous jog from my place down to Jurong East library in the evening alone for the first time. It was manageable though. My stamina’s back. =) When I reached the library I settled down with 2 books. Read till the library closed. AND AND... I walked from the library to Bukit Batok and then I jogged up to my place. I could have taken the bus or train home but I didn’t. =)) Damn syiok... & I want to do it again.

I actually forgot to wish my best friend on her birthday. Can you imagine that?? And to make it worse...it took me two days for me before I came to realise that I haven’t wish her. So much for best friends... It hit me just now at work when Judith, my AWESOME supervisor, asked me about Halloween. Omg...
ShImA

2009-10-29T08:32:00.002+08:00

I found this on a friend’s blog…I thought I’d like to share it with my faithful readers.
That last few statements are so true. ESPECIALLY the last one. & to go to that extent… Envy is the cause of it.
ShImA

You ARE.

2009-10-28T10:44:00.003+08:00

HI LEECH.
The Story-Teller
You know...It takes one bitch to know the other…, no? The difference between you and me or the other bitches…Well…YOU’RE the MOST PATHETIC one I've ever come across. It’s a pity that you had to put in that much effort to seek for attention. Going to that extreme... GAWD... Desperate aren’t you? Those stories that you tell others… which you made up just to grab their attention…are disgusting… Just like yourself.

I think you're dumb to think that I'll fall for that old trick of yours.
Da basi larh eh!
ShImA
You’re mentally unstable & insecure.

2009-10-26T14:28:00.001+08:00

My eyes are so heavy that I’ll just doze off in minutes or even seconds. Was it because of the food I ate during lunch or was it because of the lack of beauty sleep? I’ve NO idea…

Anyone can overcome peer pressure when they stand strong in what they believe in. & that is when discipline comes in. No doubt it is challenging. For anyone who has yet to experience…it is easier said than done. Unless they are firm enough to resist all those temptations offered by their friends… all those pleadings… the rationales which seems to make sense when you see from their point of view… I’m very sure anyone will fall right through the trap hole. And when you’re stuck there… only you can free yourself.
ShImA

So. Who are your true friends?

2009-10-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

Weekend was a blast.
Samuel, Divek, Nipun, Nunman, Michael, Hafiz, Syafiq, Fadlul, Khairi, Syaza & I. We went to Aladin at Haji Lane on Friday night. & it was the first time I took Night Rider back home. Then, Saturday night had soccer with Nunman and his 2 cousins, Dennis,Rodney, Azhar, Khairi, Syafiq & Ameera at Redhill. The night that was full of sweat, stunts, fun & laughter.
Can’t wait for the next weekend outings!
ShImA

2009-10-22T08:15:00.000+08:00

It was months ago since I last run. I just started training for my 2.4km yesterday. Think my stamina has gone down. I only managed to complete ¾ of the usual route before my lips went dry and my visions went slightly blurred. How to get gold for NAPFA??? Haha. Don’t know if I could do well for the stations even. Well I still got more than 1 month... Is that enough to achieve my goal? Ouh wells… we’ll see…

When someone tried too hard to get something out of another person… It kinda pissed me off. Ever encountered someone who tells joke when it’s not even funny? And you just had to force laughter out of you or smile out of politeness? It’s so tiring. Why can’t they just keep all those not-worth-to-laugh-at jokes to themselves? And when we laugh along, they’ll say even more. I just wished I could be so mean that they just stop trying so hard to make others laugh. Gawd! These people are just so IRRITATING. I don’t know man… that only applies to some people.

You know… It’s a different case if a person have this charm to make people laugh at whatever you say… like even when they say something stupid…it IS funny. If that charm don’t exist in you… Hey keep all those stupid jokes to yourself alright.
ShImA

2009-10-21T12:24:00.004+08:00

Per Hour
I’m the frequent toilet visitor today that I’ve kind of lost count on how many times I’ve been going to the toilet. Probably 5 or 6 times... ? Wtf..? And I very much preferred the ‘ambience’ of the toilet. It’s so warm and comfortable in there… no doubt.

I couldn’t help but I would like to share something about toilet as a whole. I’d say I did some research on ...why toilet is warm? HAHA! I know... it’s so random. Ever wondered why toilet is so comfortable? Do you know that there are so many considerations/things to take note of before building a toilet? Not sure if building is the right word to use. And since I’ve got some free time…here is my finding. All you need to know about toilet is right below
A Guide To Better Public Toilet Design and Maintenance

& do you know that there’s such a thing called certified cleaners. Never knew its existence until this caught my eye.
Toilet cleaners should be properly trained and certified to perform the task well. One such certification is the National Skills Recognition System (NSRS) for cleaning toilets.
I wonder if that kind of certification is being issued out to the cleaners here in Singapore. Our wellsss…

& it’s frigging cold here in the office. However, the chill in this room is not as chilly as the one in one of the other room which I think it’s called the T&C Room. My goodness. It’s as if I’m in an ice chamber. I went there for some safety training… or rather safety talk. It was interesting with the gruesome accidents shared…

Pardon me for the lengthy entry but allow me to rant more.
I was having lunch with a group of men from my department in the canteen. They are friendly people… but…Awkward it was. Not because I’m being surrounded by guys but I just don’t feel that I belong there. The thing is… every time they make conversations amongst them…I feel abandoned. It’s just so different here. I don’t get to be me.

& I realized how much I missed the crazy boy friends of mine.& of course Beth, Shafiq, Nunman, Wanghe, Michael Chin.
I don’t feel detached from all their conversations. At least they bothered to include me and I can crap along with them. But here… I feel restricted.

& of course I miss my lovely girl friends too.Ameera, Priya, Saliza, Joanne, Shye Fern, Li Ting, Siti...

Now that I'm done with Book 2... Shall continue to read up the third.
ShImA

2009-10-20T13:37:00.003+08:00

“It’s been a long time since I last saw you.”
To be recognized and missed is indeed a great feeling. They are one of the few reasons that I have for me to continue serving there. Friendly people who never fail to carve a smile across my face and making my day, an AWESOME one. Never have I regretted serving them. =)
So cute the picture… Don’t you agree with moi?
I can't always make you smile but I can make you smile along with me. Influence is something I'm good at. haha. =)
To influence and be influenced are both my strengths and weaknesses.
ShImA

A Genuine Smile Adds Colour to One’s Life.

2009-10-19T08:52:00.003+08:00

Breakfast is the most important meal of the day.
GOOD MORNING PEOPLE!!!
A KICK START TO A BRAND NEW DAY!!
It’s 8.43AM. I’m wide awake. At least I think I am. Haha. Don’t know if people will actually read this blog of mine this early… BUT I know I have my lovely faithful readers who would read my humble entry. *ehem. Haha! Pardon me. I know it’s been a long while I’ve actually written something like this. I’m feeling cheerful today! So yeah. =)

I LOVE CEREALS!
Anyways.. I came to realise that breakfast benefits our mind and body. However, I’m still not convinced with the ‘important’ part though... although… it is stated right smack on top of this entry. Haha. I know. Contradicting. Maybe… the reason behind that would be…because I’ve been skipping my breakfast my entire life. Haha. Ok that’s an exaggeration. But I would like to share some interesting facts that I came across for those who are interested to know of course…

Are you one of those who skip your breakfast? Perhaps you are on a busy schedule that you tend to skip it. Actually breakfast has always been regarded as the most important meal of the day. Breakfast is so important, that it is a foundation for long health benefits. Do you know that when you don't skip them, you have 35-50% lower rate of insulin resistance compare to those who skip the meal.It is good news as insulin resistance triggers diabetes and heart diseases. A study also showed that those who skipped breakfast are more likely to be overweight than those who didn't skip it. Sometimes when you skip breakfast, you tend to get hungrier and ended up eating more than usual for lunch. Perhaps that causes the gain of weight. So if you are a busy person, have some packet of biscuits or bread handy to start a healthy day.

Not only does it give you energy to start a new day, but breakfast is linked to many health benefits, including weight control and improved performance, maintain better concentration, physical stamina, maintain health and optimise growth.
. Most of us may not realise that Breakfast is the most important meal of the day. Indeed, nutritionists consider that breakfast is necessary for everyone, especially children & adolescents.

Anyways… click on THIS to know more about Breakfast. Or you can google it yourself... =)

I’m still adjusting my not-so-healthy diet to a healthier one. It takes time & EFFORT to do that.
ShImA

Cheerios! =)

2009-10-16T09:38:00.003+08:00

Thirst Issue.
Yeah. My face was screwed up when I dismantled it. It isn’t fair since it was my first time there after a long week, not stepping into that place. It was their responsibility to clean it every single day before it could turn to that. I just couldn’t leave it as it is coz somebody has to do it or else it’ll get even worse than that. I just had to do it even though it was too much for me to handle. Blardy hell… I wonder what they have been doing. Assholes. I swear I’ll think twice before getting that.

The last time I picked out and ‘tried’ to read a Harry Potter book, I ended up having difficulties in figuring out what the hell is the book trying to say. Ever since that, I didn’t even want to read anything that has got to do with Harry Potter anymore. Too discouraged by those bombastic words that they used on the book I guess. Think it was because I read the first few pages... you know… before the story actually starts..? Lol. I preferred watching the movie to reading the books. But now that I got hold of the books again… it wasn’t as tough as I thought it was. Thanks to my Awesome-ness BF Joanne for that. Now, that I’m hooked to it.
ShImA

2009-10-15T16:22:00.002+08:00

Too dark to handle.
The flavor was so thick that the bitterness still lingers in my tongue. Hell yeah it was the finest I’ve ever tasted but I guess that’ll be my first and my last.
ShImA

2009-10-14T16:16:00.002+08:00

What draws me to actually read word for word than to just skim through one’s entry is when the writer managed to grab my attention. A well written and polished entry never fails to inspire me to be a better blogger. To be able to read and actually understand a literary writer’s piece is really amazing. How they expressed themselves/their thoughts through their choice words…is WOW. I hope I’m able to improve my English language to another level.

Writing/typing lengthy entry is not necessary coz it tends to bore people with your long-windedness. You know another thing that beautifies someone’s page, is when there are pictures. It adds colour to one’s dull ‘personal’ space.
& sometimes.. all you need is just a picture. It's up to the readers to interpret.
ShImA

A picture is worth a thousand words.

2009-10-12T08:03:00.000+08:00

Because You're A Student Leader, I Trust You.
ShImA

2009-10-10T14:01:00.001+08:00

Popeyes & Flyer
with the ladies
With these people, you just can’t stop laughing your ass off. It was so full of jokes, crap and silliness. Crazy stuff. Awesome day it was yesterday. Love every single one of them.
ShImA

2009-10-08T16:09:00.000+08:00

Dejavu.

ShImA

2009-10-06T13:06:00.004+08:00

Rainy Day
It was 6.33 when I woke up. Yeah.. Today was my first time after 1 month being an early bird. There goes my clean record for trying not to be a late queen. Ouh well… Hopefully this will be my first and the last time for IA. Allow me to share with you about today’s journey to BD. I’ll even provide the full account. LOL. Silly me.

Here goes…
I rushed myself to get prepared and 7am I left my house. I was having a dilemma on whether I should just take a cab to work or not. I just walked quickly to the train station and board the train all the way to Boon Lay. I felt like a sardine packed with the other sardines in a tin. Blardy hell. Thank god when I changed train, heading towards Boon Lay, it wasn’t as squeeze-y as the one heading to Jurong East.

When I reached the bus interchange… based on my gut feel, I board 193 which goes to Tuas. And I realized I was on the wrong bus when it made a turn on this junction. Due to my stubbornness… I stayed onboard until I was at Avenue 9 of Tuas, when I realized I’m lost. I went to ask the bus driver. He told me to get on the bus at the opposite side. And so I alighted.

I couldn’t flag a cab coz I only have $5 with me. I didn’t put my $20 in my purse when my mom passed it to me instead I left it on the table in the living room. I only got to know when my mom called and I’m about to reach Boon Lay. Dumb shit. Lol.

I board the bus at the other side and asked the bus driver if this goes to Avenue 2 and he said yes. I was relieved. When I reached, the bus driver told me to alight as I’ve reached my ‘destination’. Yes I was at Avenue 2 lane but I saw nothing familiar. Not even the companies surrounded by BD that I know of. I really didn’t know where to go from there.

I approached a cab nearby with ‘busy’sign. I asked the uncle if he knows where 30 Tuas Avenue 2 is. He wasn’t sure himself but asked me to go inside his cab. I told him I didn’t have enough cash but he just asked me to go in and he drove me along the Avenue 2 lane. When we found BD, I thanked him twice and alighted.

He let me ride for free. He was so nice. While driving, someone called and he picked up the call. He said, ‘On the way. On the way.’. He was supposed to be somewhere else yet he was willing to help me find my company first before going off. Omg… I’m really touched. There are not many taxi drivers who are willing to do that kind of deed. I’m one lucky person to have found the kind taxi driver.

It was 8.30 when I reached my office & I didn’t get caught being late.
ShImA

Luck was on my side.
Lucky Me.

2009-10-04T20:08:00.002+08:00

BeTtY Cho0's B'dAy

ShImA

2009-09-30T13:58:00.001+08:00

There are always a better way in stating your point across. There’s no need for the harshness. I’m fully aware that this is your territory and I’m just a temporary outsider. You said it like I’m those rebellions who have committed a lot of mistakes and whom you ‘think’ you can scare them off by that tone of yours. You’re wrong. So much for a respectable reputation that you have but it doesn’t seem that you’re up for it. So much arrogance in that statement. It’s unnecessary. I’m turned off by that first impression that you showed me. There are better ways in handling things. Ya. I’m wrong to do it but it doesn’t mean that you have to say it in a threatening way.
ShImA

Respect can never be earned that way.
First and final warning.
Whatever.

2009-09-25T01:44:00.001+08:00

Jack of All Trades Master of None
As I looked at the Powerpoint slides made by others, they seemed to have shared interesting things about themselves to people whereas I don’t. I realised that I lead a pretty mundane life.

I learned very little about almost everything but it’s just on the surface like what they say...An ocean of knowledge of an inch deep.

What do I expect? That is the result of the undecided End-In-Mind, still unsure of my purpose in life. I’m just going with the flow, allowing the nature to take its course. Eager to learn everything/anything... but it is all halfway. It has always been that case. So here I am... lost and confused.

Why is it that some people know what they want to do in the future, what they want to achieve in life and they’ve already set their mind towards their goal even when they’re young? And I shall answer it myself...How they were being brought up perhaps..? Their lifestyle maybe...? Or their strong relationship with influential people...?

Whatever that I’ve accomplished so far which I can’t recall... what have I accomplished? You see my point? Even if there is/are achievement(s) that I’ve made so far ... they are so minor that it became forgettable.

I’m still young and there’s still time to sit down and plan my future... but it just seemed so difficult and I don’t have forever.

A little side track here. When you live in the older generation, you know what parents will normally say. They’ll make the easiest and simplest decision for you to put an end to your or rather their ‘misery’. When you’re around my age especially if you’re a girl, they’ll just end your teenage life by marrying you off to some guy you don’t even know. I just don’t understand girls back then. They said nothing and agreed to an arranged marriage. Thank god I’m not in that generation. But even in this era... you still find girls getting married at a young age.

No doubt...Whatever I’ve learnt have helped me in guiding me to a better person. How I wished I knew it well and deep enough.
ShImA

It’s like shooting for everything but I hit nothing.

2009-09-24T08:40:00.003+08:00

Time Flies
So many things to do with so little time, one popular phrase indeed. We hear it most of the time. We got so absorbed in whatever we do that we don’t realise how fast the time have passed. It is not that time flies because it doesn’t in the first place. Time don't speed up either as it is constantly ticking away. It is the amount of workload that we commit ourselves into. I’m not surprised if in few years to come, we realised that time passed even faster than it did now because we’ll get even busier in future. And then, we’ll complain for the insufficient time and thus constantly demand for more.

Here in Singapore, we’re always rushing through things, always occupied with something, always begging for more time to finish things up but we’re not even close to finishing it and it seems never ending too. It sets me to ponder upon this question; do we even get to really make full use of the time while we’re still alive? Ouh wells.

So yeah....The results were out and my first and only D contaminated my slip. Despite that, I’m very grateful that I wouldn’t have to repeat any modules. What I got, is what I deserved. Now is the time to strive for IAP and FYP to pull up my GPA. I'm just hoping that it'll go back to where it was.
ShImA

From seconds to minutes to hours to days to weeks to months to years…
One day it’ll just *poof*; disappear into thin air.

2009-09-15T15:52:00.002+08:00

I’m losing… Or I will lose…
I’m not sure what is happening to me. All this while, I’ve been thinking a lot about some things. It kept occurring, at times it gets scary. I’m seeing those images and all those thoughts are telling me something but I’m either not getting it or I refused to allow it to sink in me. Every time it came across my mind, sadness filled me up to the brim and it overflows.
ShImA

2009-09-10T00:36:00.000+08:00

The 3rd week of fasting will be ending soon... and Hari Raya is just next week. I have yet to fulfil my intentions of performing terawih prayers and other deeds. Time passed by so fast that I didn’t even realise.

3rd day have passed and I was damn early for work for all the 3 days...like 30mins?? Unbelievable... but its true... hopefully I’m able to maintain that for the next 57 days? Haha... I’m still getting use to working in the morning though... I kept yawning especially when I reached my peak hour... And Joanne is such a great company. She’s the best when it comes to entertainment. Thx for entertaining me gila. =))
ShImA

2009-09-07T00:56:00.002+08:00

I don't know why i can't reply through tagboard.. So I'll just do it here.
Reply to tag

To Ameera: hahaha!! no need.. you're hot too.. just that im hotter... haha!! =)

Will update on the bme bbq that was held on Saturday, once my 'hottie' Nipun and smarty Teddy upload the pictures on FB, and my lovely Fiona to send the pictures. So if any of you, named above, sees this entry, you know what to do. =)
ShImA

2009-09-05T02:35:00.001+08:00

Thursday’s Geylang outing was awesome but tiring. I finally got to meet dearest Ameera. =) We went in a big group, Patricia, Eva, Priya, Inky, Ameera, Shafiq, Nunman, Beth, Hafiz, Teddy, Ying Kai and Rodney.

If you haven’t noticed, now is the divorce trend. Celebrities everywhere are filing their divorce case. We thought we’re going to be with the one we love forever and so we got married. But as years passed we realised they’re not the one for us and that there’s no more love and so we end it there. Divorce may be the easiest way out, but it is also a tedious and heartbreaking process to go through. I’m not surprise if one day, divorcing a person does not require any paper work at all when it became too customary.

Anyways, I can’t wait for BBQ, later in the evening at Costa Sands organised by Teddy, Li Ting and Li Zhong for the 3rd year BME students.
ShImA

2009-09-03T01:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was awesome. After the IAP briefing, went to Bugis to break fast then head to Arab St with the guys, Nipun, Michael Raj, Divek, Rodney, Beth, Hafiz, Ying kai and Teddy.

I've been working day shift for a few days now at Hillview. Yea. Surprisingly, I was on time for work. My greatest achievement. It was a strategy to prepare myself for IAP as I have to report by 8am. Hopefully I'm able to tune my biological clock back. Ouh wells...

I can't wait to meet Ameera later! It's been a long time since we last met. =))
ShImA

2009-08-29T02:30:00.002+08:00

Now that I have the time to blog... I'll blog frequently from now on.

Since I can express it all...
Hear me out.
We don't seem to understand others.
But we always claim that we do.
Stop telling the person what to do or even go to the extent of advising him/her. Unless you're in the person's shoe... don't assume that you know what's going on. Because you don't know a shit on what's happenning on that person's life.

Unless you could lend a hand to the person, don't talk so much because whatever you say, the person already knows. Sending the message across on what you think is relevant, it becomes unrelevant if the person aware of it.

In crucial times, help is what the person needs rather than saliva.

I know what are my priorities. But due to some circumstances, I just can't help it. You think I like it that way? Think again. Like I said, if you were in my shoes then you'll understand.
ShImA

If you could only say, then don't bother.

2009-08-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

Regret is a waste of time.
Before exams, things got pretty hectic. Never have I felt that much pressure that I nearly couldn't handle. I was so close to giving up. But thank god I did not. It'll be a total waste if I did. I'm glad that I managed to pull it all off... of course with the help of my lovely friends, esp Pat. I owe her big time.

I am not expecting much for my results. I could have done better if I could manage my time well... Now that it's over, I just hope that I won't be repeating any modules. Hopefully there won't be any D's. I don't want any D's to contaminate my transript!!. I need to maintain my GPA. Okay. Now I'm scared. Ouh wells...Just pray for the best. Whatever I get is what I deserve. =S

Things are much better now. I think.. So far larh. The next challenge for me is my IAP at BD, Tuas. Hopefully I will not be late for work.
Now can enjoy!! =) even though I have only 1 week.
ShImA

2009-08-26T16:59:00.001+08:00

Some People
How does it feel to be a casanova?
It disgust me when ANY guy who belongs to the malay community claiming themselves to be one and especially when they aren't any smarter or what we call them a male bimbo... I'm just wondering if they feel proud to be one. Well of course they are.. if they're not, they wouldn't be contaminating their display name with that word. Casanova's attracts pretty bimbo girls. And they complement each other. Both dumb and immature, highly dependent on looks.

By the way, being a casanova is not something to be proud of. It ain't cool at all. So what if you're dating a lot of pretty girls or if you're pathetic enough... dating even CMI girls? That dignity of yours have collapsed all the way to the Earth's core, baby. And that's all I have to say. Thank you.
ShImA

Reputation for having many amorous adventures.
whatever.

2009-08-19T01:15:00.003+08:00

HIATUS
Will be back after EXAMz

Menyambut kehadiran Ramadhan dengan hati yang terbuka dan penuh kesyukuran. Semoga kit dapat melaksanakan ibadah puasa dengan sempurna.
Insyaallah.
To All my Muslim friends..
HAPPY FASTING! =)

ShImA

Patience is not only a virtue
But a necessity for a happy existence.

2009-08-18T01:32:00.002+08:00

Singlehood
I just love it this way.

I’m happy with the way things are now. I realised that now is not the right time to find bf and settle down. Probably I don’t think that I’m ready to commit yet... the freedom to mingle around... =)) Maybe part of it is due to my endless commitment to schoolwork. (Like I said before.. school has become my 2nd home. ) And also I’m surrounded by friends who are still single... Well there are so many reasons to my singlehood... If I were to list them down... the blog will probably run out of page.. haha... okay.. That’s probably an exaggeration.

Besides... what’s the point rushing into a relationship? Love will come when the time comes. I believe that one day, my Mr Right will appear. Even if it doesn’t, I really don’t mind being single for the rest of life.

A friend of mine once said... If you have gf/bf now... you’ll regret later. Maybe he’s right. If you decide to devote yourself to someone now... there’s limitations. What if you find somebody else better when you’re with that someone? You’ll just miss that chance.

Then again different individual have their own perception about some things...
ShImA

Because I Have AWESOME Friends.

Labels: The Equation.
looks + height + charisma + charm + intelligence + cool personality= Mr Perfect.

2009-08-13T01:11:00.002+08:00

What Matters Is What’s Inside Baby
Without fail....
We’re deceived by what we see.
Because the exterior reveals so much
Even if it’s wrong or misleading
But yes...At times... it’s true...

People love to judge by how we dress up, the way we talk, the friends we hang out with, the places we go to, who the parents are, the school we're in, the grades we scored, the lifestyle, and the list goes on. What more stereotyping.

Judgements by people are inevitable.
We only judge what’s outside and we just leave it as it is, the way we see it. We choose not to understand what’s inside them. But after we get to know and understand the actual person, we’ll either end up swallowing back what we thought and be good friends or end up regretting befriending the person.

Getting to know a person revolves around the concept of trial and error. ShImA

Sometimes...what you see is what you don’t get.

2009-08-07T00:53:00.001+08:00

I just want to get it all done and over with.
I felt very much relieved.
Now that the burdens are lighter.
Now that I can concentrate better..
No more unnecessary ‘obstructions’..
ShImA-h
they make it sound seductive...self-high is a possibility...still... i love them all.

Too bad it’s all temporary.
I’ve put a stop to it.
Decision fixed.
And there’s no turning back.

2009-08-03T01:08:00.002+08:00

The reason for always smiling...
(so that i won't look like some minah.. lol!)
Overdue Camp Pics..
room mates
ShImA

2009-07-24T01:54:00.002+08:00

Blogging has made me a predictable person.
It is both an advantage and a disadvantage at the same time.

Fulfilling desires are so tough. Blardy hell. You may have the will to push yourself to your limits, mentally but physically, you’re still there, standing at the same blardy spot. To walk the talk is effing difficult. Actions speak louder than words. Fuck those phrases man. It doesn’t always apply to every situation. Until you’re in the person’s shoes you’ll not know.

But it is not as if I didn’t try. I fucking did try my best to achieve it. It’s so frustrating. Imagine you’ve really put in so much effort for it but it didn’t pay off. It’s like you’re really determined to get it but due to some unforeseen circumstances..... You just can’t do it. It demoralise you further. It is easy for you to say... coz you’re not the one experiencing it what...Wait till you experience it... then you’ll understand.

Others only know how to add salt to the wound. Shoot people with sarcasm... make a joke out of it... demoralising people...

Everyone thinks differently.
Different people see things differently.
Everyone is different.
Sometimes you just need to see things from different perspective.
DIFFERENCE.

Another thing... I can’t tolerate sarcasm anymore. I hate it when people doubt my capabilities. I hate it when people shoot me with irrelevant bullshits. I hate it when people question my intelligence. Even if you’re more intelligent...you still don’t have the right to degrade a person’s dignity. I’m sure it is from the experience and the maturity that you gained in life so far that leads you to where you are now and mould you to who you are now.

I’ve just had enough of such treatments.
ShImA

If there’s nothing nice to say to people.. just zip it alright.

2009-07-22T00:54:00.002+08:00

Oprah wrote this about men...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior.
Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god.

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage...

Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...

a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...

look for someone complimentary...

not supplementary.

Dating is fun...

even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes....

when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him

- he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house.

Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

guess it's true...ouh wells...

That reminds me of the conversation I had with two friends of mine at North canteen... Ying Kai & Teddy. It went womething like this... I can’t remember the whole convo though...

Out of nowhere...
Teddy: You will get married before 25.
Me: What if I don’t?
Teddy: If 25 you’re still not married... You’ll never get married after 26.
Ying Kai: So when you want to get married?
Shima: What if I won’t get married?
Teddy: (he was saying something which I can’t quite remember...but I know he denied that I won’t be getting married.)
Ying Kai: She won’t get married just to prove to you(Teddy).
Me: I boyfriend also dun have...
Ying Kai: Boyfriend you don’t have... Boyfriends you have right...
Me: Ya of course...
Teddy: You don’t want a tree... You want the whole forest.

Ya Teddy... IF only I could have the whole forest... LOL.
Hilarious.

ShImA

2009-07-21T00:26:00.002+08:00

Pierced right through.
A slow and painful experience.

It hit me hard...
Now that I realised...
This is life.

You’ll be the ONLY one steering your own boat.
You’ll be the ONLY one choosing on the path you walk on.
You’re the ONLY one who decides what’s best for yourself.
Whatever the consequences are,
Every risk you take,
You face it alone.

Yes. At times, others are willing to share it with you...
But you’ll be the one who will absorb most of it.
ShImA

Because true friends don’t exist.

2009-07-19T05:42:00.002+08:00

T-Junction
Take the left or right path.
You’ll eventually end up somewhere.
Stay in the middle undecided.
You’ll end up staying there forever.

Silence either means a yes or a no.
And I’m having a hard time figuring it out.
Will you help me by giving me some answers?
Or am I supposed to search for the answers myself?
Which one?
Or are there some misunderstandings yet to be clarified?
Is the fault mine or is it yours?

Should I seal it up and keep it somewhere?
Should I crush it and throw it away?
Should I lock it and throw the key into the sea?

Or should I wait till I get the explanations?
Until when?

ShImA
Somewhere along the journey...I think I’ve lost myself.

2009-07-16T00:29:00.002+08:00

SEG!
ShImA

2009-07-14T01:32:00.002+08:00

Coz it’s temporary.
From what I see and feel... I think I got it.
You’re a totally different person.
And I don’t recognise you anymore.
You should have just said it right smack to my face and I don’t have to keep guessing. It makes things simpler. I’m just wondering if whatever told is actually worth believing.
I admit I was in denial... But I’m confident that the dream will come true... or has it actually come true? Ouh wells. =(
You’re the greatest disappointment.

To start friendship is easy.
But maintaining it... is altogether another thing.

Camp was a blast. The ELITES were awesome bunch. I simply loved the camp and also the ELITES and of course the EXCOs too. I think it’s the first camp that I leave my face as it is. Hopefully the pictures will be up soon...

Yesterday’s Instrumentation experiment was really something. I nearly cursed in front of the lecturer when I felt the current flow. Omg... pain can... But it was interesting... =)

I wasted my time going for the badminton tournament yesterday... I even go to the extent of lying down and slept in the sports hall while waiting for my turn and I woke up to find out that I didn't get to compete with my opponent coz its walk over and I managed to get to the quarter finals. I'm not sure if I want to play or not this Wednesday... Ouh wells...
ShImA

Because jerks and liars aren’t worth fighting for.

2009-07-10T03:02:00.004+08:00

Like finally it’s over but it’s not the end yet.
CT is over...
ELITES camp is today...
School resumes next week..

Random questions....
Why is it that when we’re in love... we tend to live in denial?
Why is it that when we’re in love... we tend to overlook some things?
Why is it that when we’re in love... we tend to believe a lie?

How long does it take before we know the REAL person?

Anyways... I miss this.
ShImA

time to hit the gym & track.

2009-07-05T02:14:00.004+08:00

BBQ Jia Jun.Dennis.Taufiq.Liu Yang.Liu Yang's bf.Matthew.Fiona.Carol.Ling Hui.Teddy.Divek.Michael.Li Ting.Rodney.Hafiz.Nipun.Samuel.Azhar.Rodney.Sean.

The remaining pictures are at facebook and bme blog... =)
ShImMy

2009-06-30T03:24:00.002+08:00

:A:
As I list down the possibilities,
Tried to see it from the other view,
Being all optimistic,
Forcing myself to believe it,
But the instincts are saying the opposites.

:B:
As I absorb it all,
Tried to understand the point,
Storing it mentally,
Forcing myself to accept it,
But I’m just struggling.

It doesn’t make much sense.
It just goes hay-wire.

Is it me or is it them?

I tried...

But it all comes down to...
Ignorance... and Wasted efforts... and etc...

Allow the tears to flow
And let it soothe you in the dark, that none can witness.
Refrain yourself from whimpering so that none is able to hear.
Keep it inside that only you know it.
And seal it there that only you feel it.
Accumulate it there....
And one day it’ll burst without you knowing.
That is when the damage is beyond repair.

That is when you realise it’s too late.

Hiatus.

2009-06-27T03:21:00.015+08:00

Okay. I can’t take it.
Allow me to rant about it.

He, who named himself as Jin Kazama and whose display picture, displays a smug face, pointing his right middle finger towards the camera and his left hand holding on to a bottled beer. Just what is his motive in taking that kind of picture? Hey look people.. I'm a fierce-wannabe-MAT. Hey people look... I drink. Bleah.

Back to my story...
This random mute ‘friend’ decided to add me... and since I’m a nice person... I accepted his request.

After this incident... I swear to god I detest this type of Mat to the core of my soul... and what I labelled them as Nak-Step-Fierce-Macam-Paham-Mat.

Okay. Let me explain my point.

How is it polite having a random ‘friend’ whom you don’t even know, coming to your notes and Caps Lock his comment? Who the hell is he to make such comment? Yeah2... it’s a free world and everyone has the freedom to say whatever shit they want to anyone on this earth. Bleah.

And yeah... I cannot accept those comments which I considered rude.

And he said this after I replied to his sarcasm.

And 3 young ladies likes it.. watever.

It’s either he doesn’t understand the note... or trying to be sarcastic. Let us assume that he really doesn’t understand it... Maybe it's due to his poor understanding of English... which is kind of expected.. this kind of people.. only know how to react based on what they feel and being all irrational. oopz. I don’t see the point in capitalising his comment. At first, I thought maybe it’s his way in commenting... coz some people have the habit to caps lock their words. But no... as I looked at his other comments at his profile.. He doesn’t have that habit and thus...I’m very sure it’s sarcasm.

How is it fanatic by replying that way? And sadly my siblings took his side. And of course I had to rebut. But of course I lost to them too...coz they know more than I do. But I did see things from their point... I did realise that my words did seem to be fanatic... BUT only to those who don’t know me well enough. Maybe I don’t mix around with typical Malay people like those Mat’s and Minah’s that much or I don’t even mix with them at all and so I don’t know what is so fanatic about the statement that I made... And I’m figuring out the actual definition of their ‘fanatic’.

Typical Fanatic Incidents

A stares at B. B gets all worked up and walks up to A and said, ‘what stare stare.’ with a tone that shows aggression.
That is fanatic.

B is unhappy... calls up all his/her gang members to come down to confront and then beat up A.
That is fanatic.

A hate-tagger tags at a C’s blog... and criticized with all vulgarities comes into set. C replied with much sarcasm... Things got ugly. Hate-tagger invites C to meet up with hate-tagger (vice versa) to fight.
That is fanatic.

D talks as if he owns the world.
That is fanatic.

E cannot accept small mistake... turns everything into a big fuss, involving those whose not involved in the first place.
That is fanatic.

But whatever it is... I know myself...and I’m not being fanatic.

I have a thing when it comes to sarcasm. I can’t accept sarcasm from a complete stranger. Especially NOT from this type of people.

Anyways... from my point of view... I would like to comment on his 2nd and 3rd statement which he post in his profile.

Judging from the statement that he made... I can assume that he was either once a typical fanatical mat or is still one or have had friends/acquaintances who were fanatics. That doesn’t make him more experienced and pointing out to others about all those fanatical shits. I don’t think he’s worthy of the sarcasm he spits to people around him whom he knows/don’t know and telling them off when he’s one himself. From my point... he’s like a pot calling a kettle black. I’ve just had enough of these people.

I once had a friend... similar case as the one I’ve pointed out earlier, who’s no longer a friend of mine coz he doesn’t deserve to be in that spot in my friends list. Whatever that came out from his mouth were all bullshits and he’s living in his own little pathetic world. And if only I had that chance to be all sarcastic right smack at his face... I swear I’ll be the most satisfied person.

I wished that one day I would encounter another one of these type.... How nice it would be to stab them with the deadliest weapon of all, which is the tongue.

But of course I know it’s not allowed in my religion.
You just can’t.

Too bad it all had to end here... in this blog of mine.

If there is a minah/mat reading this...
I’m sorry that you chose to read till this far and had to swallow all these... NOT.
Coz I’m just stating the fact.

Yours sincerely.
ShImA

2009-06-24T18:40:00.001+08:00

ShImA

2009-06-21T02:29:00.002+08:00

Mak cik: Best ker gaji pat sini?
Me: ok larh..
Mak cik: Maseh skola kan..
Me: aah..
Mak cik: Part-time kan.. kire ok larh tu...
Me: *just smiled at her*
Mak cik: Ni da tunang-tunang ke belom?
Me: huh? Belom...
Mak cik: Nanti cik tolong carikan eh...

Ape saje larh mak cik ni... nk cari-carikan segala... haiyo... tk payah susah2 mak cik oi... LOL.
ShImA

2009-06-20T00:37:00.000+08:00

So much disappointment.

2009-06-19T00:49:00.004+08:00

I’m sort of amazed by your capability in casting that charm of yours to others. And ya.. the fact that you’re able to make others not be angry at you when they really are, is undeniable. Really.
But the way you treat me just pissed me off and really upsets me.
Maybe I’m not used to that kind of treatment.
Maybe I don't expect it to come from you.
So. Thanks.
ShImA

2009-06-16T17:25:00.004+08:00

After 10 years (plus minus), I finally get to see my long ‘lost’ cousins, aunt and uncle (father’s side), the other day. I’ve always wanted to see them but have not been given the chance. People changed so much over the years, the reason, I didn’t even recognise them. It was a shocking experience. Nazri, same age as me, looked so different. Way different. It took me quite some time to confirm with myself if that is really him that I see. I stared long enough at his name and tried to match his face before I accept the fact that it is really him. He’s in NS now. Nadia, his sister, is pretty. She always is. She’s now in NTU.
Well... I still have others whom I’ve yet to see.
ShImA

2009-06-15T17:46:00.001+08:00

Where Are You??

ShImMy

2009-06-15T01:37:00.004+08:00

I think it's only fair if you receive the same treatment...
Well..
If you want it that way...
I’ll play it your way.
What goes around comes back around.
Having to constantly anticipate just suck.
You've no idea....
pfft.
ShImA
When People Can't Take You At Your Worst,
They Don't Deserve You At Your Best.
Just disappointed.

2009-06-13T14:44:00.001+08:00

Overwhelming emotions got me choked upon unuttered words.
ShImA

2009-06-05T00:59:00.003+08:00

Behind those smiles and laughter.
Maybe I’m in denial.
Maybe I overestimate my capabilities.
Maybe I underestimate e lot of things.
Maybe I'm too optimistic over a lot of things.
Maybe there are too many things to handle.
Maybe I got way too easily distracted.

Maybe I need some time alone.
Maybe I want someone to hear me out.
Maybe I craved for some encouragement/motivation.
Maybe I need a shoulder to cry on.
Maybe I need a comforting hug.
Maybe I need someone to guide me back to where I’m supposed to be.

To sort myself out so that everything comes back to where it was before.
Hoping that the complications will not become too complicated for me to handle.
But sympathy is not what I want.

Fuck.
Because I’m starting to lose it.
Or maybe I’m already losing it.
I’m struggling to keep up.
ShImA

coz i'm so confused.

2009-06-02T15:28:00.001+08:00

Walk the talk.
When you can’t hold on to your words,
Don’t bother saying it in the first place.
When you’re just saying it for the sake of saying,
Don’t bother telling it in the first place.
When promises made are meant to be broken,
Then, don’t waste your effort making one.
ShImA

2009-06-01T01:07:00.006+08:00

I’m losing it right from the beginning.
I’m losing it even more as time passed.
I’ve yet to visualise the end of it.
Like what I’ve always did...
To go with the flow.
ShImA

2009-05-28T22:49:00.004+08:00

Sometimes,
We don’t want rewards for what we’ve done.
We don’t need gifts for the achievement we’ve made.
We don’t expect recognition for the things we did.
We don’t hope for any returns for what we sacrificed.

When all we craved for is
Some attention and appreciation showed.
ShImA
The littlest things...
that meant so much more

2009-05-27T15:17:00.004+08:00

Where are you???
ShImMy

2009-05-27T15:17:00.002+08:00

ShImMy

2009-05-26T13:50:00.004+08:00

The Sweetest Things
What my class guys gave me as a present really caught me by surprise. I didn’t expect them to be so sweet and creative. So rare... but I love it.

Thank you all for the lovely gifts once again, the time spent and effort you guys put in. I couldn’t ask for anything more.

Thank you Sexy, for the lovely evening.

& Miss Fiona... I’m still waiting.. =)
ShImA

2009-05-24T00:40:00.004+08:00

A big
Thank You
Carol, Fiona, Priya, Jasmine, Stephanie, Eva, Michelle, Patricia, Gladys, Siti, Hafiz, Haiza, Geng Bee, Matthew, Kaster, Sexy, Bestie, Dee, Ying Kai, Julyha, Mark, Iswandy, Azhar, Daniel, Khaz, Nipun, Harith, Rahmah, Willson, Helmi, Khalidah, Shye Fern, Constance, Rizal, Sinnee, Wang He, Beth, Khairul, Khalilah, Mia Win, Ling Hui, Faz n Saliza.
Aunts & Uncles, Cousins, Siblings.
Thank you for all the wishes and presents.

& I want to thank Nipun for calling, wishing, cheering me up and succeeded in making me laugh so hard, making my day the most joyous. =)
Pictures will be up soon. =)
ShImA

2009-05-20T17:44:00.000+08:00

2009-05-19T14:18:00.003+08:00

during Validation class..ShImMy

2009-05-19T14:18:00.002+08:00

Presentation DayShImMy

2009-05-18T19:28:00.000+08:00

i'm losing the grip

2009-05-17T00:24:00.001+08:00

sexy love

2009-05-16T00:29:00.000+08:00

The reason for all those doubts and hesitance...
And it’s happening all over again.
I hate myself for being so frigging careless.
ShImA

Pissed off.

2009-05-15T18:20:00.000+08:00

i dun feel right.

2009-05-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

It’s been so long since I last felt so much pressure.
& I broke down.
ShImA

2009-05-12T00:37:00.006+08:00

First impression doesn’t really work now.
Watch and you’ll see and hear what I meant.
WAtCh

& I love the following song
LOVE STORYmeetsVIVA LA VIDA
ShImA

thx sexy =)

2009-05-10T15:37:00.005+08:00

My Favourite Picture

Meet my gorgeous gfs

& of course we all looked different as time passed... ShImA

The Reason I ♥ Them.

2009-05-09T01:23:00.004+08:00

I Want To Party!!
Why is the ELQ ever so frigging cold? I was shivering like hell during the Medical Device Design e-learning. And worse still we had to type out the long and chunky answers down. There was so much to type out that my fingers went numb for a while. And switching off the air-con doesn’t even help.

Me, Shafiq, Samuel, Nipun, Ying Kai and Rodney went for gym in the evening. Finally I got to see Nipun after so many months. Samuel and I went for a jog around the stadium as he needs to train for his 2.4km. I ran extra round and my face were pale after the run and my visions went blur. We went back into the gym to do workouts.

After gym, went to chill at Mac till 10+. The night was really entertaining. I enjoyed myself with their company. It has been a long time since we last chilled, laughed our ass off, crapped, joked and teased one another. I miss those times.
ShImA

2009-05-05T21:40:00.002+08:00

Unless you're in my shoes...
Unless you know what I'm going through...
Unless you know my exact situation...
There's no reason for you to interfere.
You've no idea.
Not even the slightest.
Really.
ShImA

2009-05-01T21:37:00.002+08:00

A hectic week
My blog is collecting dust. Time doesn’t allow me to update. I don’t think I’m going to be a frequent blogger anymore. I don’t even go online as often too... & I don’t stay as long as I used to if I were to go online even. Ouh wells...

With all those Commitments, Assignments, Projects, etc... I’m already starting to lose focus when it’s only the second week of school. There are so many things to do and so many things to absorb with very little time. Most of it is already piling up. Since this is what I wanted, it’s time to live with it and stop all the rants. & I’ve made school my 2nd home. Well... it has always been.

Priya and I met Fiona and Carol after my meeting at Woodlands. I missed them so much. It felt so good that we got to see each other after so long... By right we were supposed to jog together in school but had to cancel it. We filled each other with our life & I can’t wait for Saturday! =))
ShImA

She said...
‘I just don’t know what the two of you are doing’
How come we’re still like that...
It seemed so clear...
And that next stage is where we should head
Well... I’m as confused as she is...
Maybe this just how it’s suppose to be for now
Maybe it’s better this way... I suppose.
I’ll let nature take its course.

There are plenty others...
but it’s you that I want.

2009-04-28T00:19:00.003+08:00

My mom and I alighted...
Mom: Kak. Tadi budak due org seblah ibu tu ckp.. ‘Minah jambu...’
(The two guys who sat beside me said...Pretty ‘girl’)

The two guys were referring to me. The two guys who sat beside my mom made that comment, unaware that the lady who sat beside them is my mom. Lol.

Minah is also defined as typical Malay Ah lian.
I actually don’t mind the pretty part(heh)... but...Why most stranger’s first impression on me...is that... I’m a Minah. Gawd. I looked quite decent what... Firstly...I don’t dress up like a typical Minah. Secondly... I don’t even look like a Minah(I think).
Ouh wells... That is why... Assumptions are usually wrong.

Anyways... Saturday’s BBQ at Catherine Soo's house was awesome. According to majority.. I’m overdressed for BBQ. (When it was pretty casual for me.) They say I’m attending a wedding instead of a BBQ.

On Saturday, As I was going down the escalator of Jurong East Library, suddenly my left leg went stiff because I sat too long on the floor. I stood at the foot of the escalator, trying to relax my leg when a stranger approached me and asked if I’m ok. It was so sweet of him to offer help. How many of us would actually care to lend a helping hand when some stranger needs it especially when you’re dealing with someone of the opposite sex? Not many.
ShImA

2009-04-24T22:27:00.004+08:00

Blissful
That addiction relives
I crave for nothing else but you
Just so you know how joyous I got every time I received your messages... let alone... getting that chance of seeing you.

I’m still in the process of adjusting my biological clock for this semester. I’m trying my best in preventing the old habit of mine from creeping in. I’m still struggling.
Although most of my lessons ended quite early and there’s a lot of ’slacking’ time, it has been rather hectic for me. I’ll get so shagged by the end of the day.

If I could spit everything out to your face... Trust me I would. Just stop pretending as if you’re all innocent when you’re the one who got everything started...when you’re the one who trapped some of us in the mess that you created out of your desperation in wanting the attention. Don’t even try proving your innocence. Not worth it. & you think some of us are on your side?? Well think again... It doesn’t matter if you decide to ditch anyone... coz you got others loathing you.
& you just tried so hard in getting that limelight.
Just... don’t waste your effort coz you’ll never get it.
ShImA